Thursday, January 17, 2013

Avery's 4th month

What happened this month:
  • December 15 - Went to her Great Great Aunt Lillie's 90th birthday party. She found her feet that day and played with them in the car!
  • Christmas - See below
  • December 26th - 1st night in her crib (10pm-5am)! She tossed and turned from3:00am - 4:30am, but no crying!
  • New Years - See below
  • She really enjoys playing peek a boo!
  • Cooing - Avery is cooing/talking so much! She's going to be a talker (just like her Aunt Kristy)!!!
  • Grabbing - She is grabbing at everything within reach! toys, clothes, burp cloths, hair, etc. She's even learned how to pull her pacifier out of her mouth, and the other day I saw her pull it out and put it right back in! And along with the grabbing, everything that she touches immediately goes to her mouth. I just love watching her go through all the phases a child goes through, even if it means my fingers or clothes will be covered in her slobber!!

Avery is definitely the boss in our household. She decides when mommy and daddy wake up, when we eat and when we shower, just to name a few! And I honestly don't mind! I'm willing to starve if my baby girl would rather me play with her! :-) Before I got pregnant, I always heard a lot of moms talk about how they forgot to eat lunch or didn't have time to shower... I thought they were just exaggerating! Well, now I understand! Just the other day I was holding Avery and my stomach let out a gnarly growl! I looked at the clock and it was 3pm... I forgot to eat lunch!

Avery's first Christmas was great! Our 1st Christmas party was on Saturday, December 22nd. This was my immediate family. Then we celebrated Christmas with Neal's mom and grandma on Sunday December 23rd. On Christmas Eve, Neal, Keeghan, Avery and I went to church and then had our family Christmas at home. Then woke up early Christmas morning and drove to El Campo to celebrate with my extended family! She spent Christmas with her BFFs Lily and Aiden on December 30th! Then we celebrated our Kutac Christmas on January 5th. Needless to say, Avery had a very fun and extended 1st Christmas! I'm so grateful that we have such a wonderful and loving family and friends! Avery got lots of clothes, toys, books and a college fund started, just to name a few gifts! Oh, and she got a wonderful savings fund started for our family trip to Disney World!!



On New Year's morning (a mere three hours after the famous ball dropped in NYC, to be exact), I woke up feeling sick. I initially thought I drank too much (I only had two glasses of wine the entire evening, so I ruled out too much alcohol pretty quickly). Looks like I had a stomach bug. I was up every 15 minutes running to the bathroom and had a fever of 102. Avery was sleeping in her pack & play in our room that evening, but luckily I never woke her up! However, when she woke at 5am for her morning feeding, I was just heading back to the bathroom for another visit to the porcelain god. I built up enough strength to feed her (I had to take two breaks to run to the bathroom, but thankfully Neal was available for me to pass her off quickly!). While Neal went to Walgreens to pick up some Pedialyte and Gatorade, he started getting sick, too!! Thankfully, my sister was spending the night, so she took Avery with her to her house to get away from us sickos! Then that evening my mom came to stay with us so she could take care of Avery. We were out of commission for 24 hours! Getting sick is one thing, but getting sick when you have an infant in the house is SO much harder! I was so worried about her getting sick that we quarantined ourselves to our room, but at the same time, I missed my baby girl so much and knowing she was in the other room made me want to get out of that germ infested room and get a peek at that beautiful smile!

Ironically, about a day or two before we got sick, Avery started getting fussy, very clingy and wanted to eat a lot more. Turns out she was going through a growth spurt. Unfortunately for me, that means I was feeding... A LOT. And holding her more than normal. We had lots of contact to pass along my illness to her! Thankfully she never got sick! However, because I was so sick and dehydrated, my milk supply dropped, which meant she wasn't getting enough from me, and was always crying for more! We had to dip into my frozen stock pile, which I'm SO glad I have! I'm still working to build my supply back up, but so grateful I didn't dry up!

Avery's growth 1-4 months:


September 10 (1 day old)

October 9 
November 9
December 9
January 9







Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Avery's Third Month

This month has been the funnest and saddest month, thus far. For starters, I had to go back to work. :-( That was extremely tough for me! But it's also been so much fun because she's actually interacting with us more!

Firsts:

11/12:Avery started reacting to toys and she even reached out to it when I put it in front of her!
11/16: Avery got her 2 month shots and took them like a champ!! But she did sleep all afternoon.
11/18: She had her first MAJOR diaper blowout! It was all over her and me!!
11/19: It was our first mommy/daughter shopping trip! We bought Avery's Thanksgiving and Christmas dresses!
11/22 Thanksgiving: This was her first trip to El Campo! She spent her first Thanksgiving with family. We watched the Texans win and also had some fun "girl talk!"
11/27: It was my last day home with Avery before I had to go back to work. :-(
11/28: My first day back at work!

Girl Talk!

Watching the Texans with Aunt Kristy


Reflux:

As I mentioned a few months ago, Avery was diagnosed with reflux. She was put on Zantac, but that did not help at all! So, her doctor switched her to Prevacid. The Prevacid has helped some. She still spits up a lot, but it's definitely an improvement from the projectile vomiting that it was before!! We still make sure to have plenty of burp cloths and she wears a bib often! And we have to hold her at a 30 degree angle for at least 20 minutes after we feed her.

Back to Work:

Two days before I had to go back to work, I lost it. I cried a lot. I didn't think I'd make it 5 minutes into my first day back without crying! When I left for work in the morning, I didn't cry. I kissed her on the forehead (she was sleeping), and left. I got in the car, waiting for the tears to start rolling down my cheek, but I got nothing. Don't get me wrong, I was sad to be leaving her, but I knew she'd be fine! The first thing I did when I got to my office was put up pictures of my smiling baby!! I missed her and thought about her ALL DAY, and looked at those pictures whenever I started to get sad (I still stare at them a lot!!)  When I got home,  I was hoping for a grand welcome, but instead I came home to a sleeping baby!

The first two weeks were easier for me than it was for her. My mom has been watching her, and she informed me that Avery was havng a tough time taking a bottle. We never had problems giving her a bottle before (we were doing some test runs before I went back to work!). I think she was having some separation issues. She has since gotten much better! Sometimes I don't think she misses me at all anymore!! :-) My favorite part of the day is coming home to see her sweet smile!

TV:

This may make me sound like a terrible mother, but Avery loves the TV! The first time we noticed her looking, we were watching Ellen, and One Direction was performing. (They may just be her first boy band crush!! But give me a little more time, and she'll soon fall in love with NKOTB!)  She loves looking at the lights, sounds and movements!! When she gets fussy, the TV (or Christmas tree) usually calms her down!

3 months old 11/9/2012


3 months old!


Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Avery's Second Month

The second month seemed to fly by so quickly!

Firsts:

Avery went to her first birthday party at Hermann park to celebrate her cousin William's 1st birthday! She also attended her first Halloween party where she dressed in a black tutu and orange & black tights. On October 23rd, Avery gave us her first REAL smile, not a "gas smile," and she hasn't stopped since! She is such a happy baby!  Mommy and daddy went on their first date night on October 29th (mommy wore her pre-pregnancy jeans on this date!); Gramma D babysat! Avery went on her first restaurant outing on November 3rd to Chili's. On November 5th, I could safely say that Avery has been consistently sleeping 6 to 7 hours at night (she still has her difficult nights, but they're few and far between)!! Avery has also been cooing a lot; I think we've got ourselves a little talker!! :-)
At William's 1st birthday party at Hermann Park
Avery's 1st Halloween party!
Avery Smiling!
More smiles!
Sleeping at Night:

The first month I really dreaded going to bed. Sometimes I would actually cry thinking about how tough the night was going to be. She would go to bed around 10pm, wake up around 1am, 3am, and 5am to nurse. And after the 3am feeding, she would be wide awake until about 4-4:30am, which only gave us a 30 minute nap before it was time to feed her again. It was exhausting!! But now she's in bed around 10:30pm and sleeps until 5:30am. She then eats and goes right back to sleep until about 7:30am, then eats again and goes back to sleep AGAIN until about 10am! It's WONDERFUL!!!
Avery loves being swaddled when she sleeps!

Love:

It's amazing how much love this little girl brings out in me! Just when you think you couldn't possibly love her more, she looks at you with those beautiful eyes and your love just grows more!!! I never understood a mother's love for her children until I became a mom.

Maternity Leave:

Being home with Avery has been such a blessing! I go back to work after Thanksgiving, and it's going to be tough, but I am so grateful I got to spend quality time bonding with Avery. I am going to be an emotional wreck when I go back!! I imagined my maternity leave to go something like this: Avery and I would wake up and go for a walk every morning, we'd go sit out on the porch and listen to the birds, I'd do laundry and clean house while she napped, we'd spend quality time together in between naps and we'd cook dinner and wait for daddy to come home from work. But it didn't work like that! We'd be lucky to get a walk in because it was either too warm, too cold, or too windy (yes, I am an overprotective mom!). Instead of sitting on the porch we sat on the couch and watched some tv. I did a lot of laundry, but cleaning the house was more difficult because Avery likes to take short cat naps so it was very hard to get much done. I  got some great quality time with her, but most of it was during feeding time! And dinner?? Ha! The only time we had a home-cooked meal on the table was when my mom was here, and she was the one doing the cooking (thanks mom!)! Our favorite part of the day was when daddy got home from work and we could all spend family time together (and it helps that he was home to help change diapers!!).

2 months old!



Thursday, November 8, 2012

Avery's First Month

I'm sorry it's been so long since my last post, but I've been a little busy lately. ;-) Although it seems like all she does is eat, sleep and poop, Avery has been occupying a lot of my time!  The first month was fairly uneventful, but here's what happened:

Firsts:

Since we've been home from the hospital, we've had a lot of diaper changes, even more feedings, and SO much laundry, just to name a few! We gave Avery her first sponge bath after her first doctor appointment on September 14th. We gave it to her in the laundry room, since it was the warmest room in the house! Two weeks later, as we were getting Avery ready for yet another soonge bath, her umbilical cord stump fell off, so we were able to give her her first real bath!! Another milestone that happened the first month was on October 2nd, she slept for 4 straight hours, which was awesome because she'd been feeding every 1-2 hours around the clock!
First sponge bath
(5 days old) 
First sponge bath
(5 days old) 
First time outside
(since coming home from the hospital!) (6 days old)
First photo shoot
(12 days old)
First bath!
(16 days old)
First walk
(Mommy had to get her blood pressure down before she could walk!)
(22 days old)

Laundry: 

Who knew one tiny little baby could create so much laundry! I do her laundry every other day. The problem is that Avery has reflux... BAD reflux... projectile vomiting. It's definitely not a pretty sight. But because she spits up so much, I have to change her clothes, and mine, often. And I can't even count how many burp clothes I go through on a daily basis! 

Crying:

We lucked out in the crying department. Avery rarely cries. The only time she cries is when something is really wrong, and even then she rarely has that "screaming" cry. The first time she REALLY cried, I thought I was the worst mother ever!! I didn't understand why she was crying. I changed her. I swaddled her. I shook her...just kidding! I was just making sure you were paying attention! ;-) And finally, I decided to feed her and she immediately stopped crying. Because she rarely cries, I am still trying to learn what each one means!

Adapting:

Having a baby in our home has definitely changed the way we do things! For starters, we eat meals around her schedule and sometimes we take shifts eating. Our cat and dog aren't too fond of her yet, but I think they're slowly warming up to her. And everywhere you turn you see a burp cloth or baby lotion or her bouncer or a bottle or pacifier. I've given up trying to keep the house clean!

Honestly, the first month wasn't as entertaining as I thought it would be, just exhausting! She mostly just layed around, while I catered to her every need (she's such a little diva)!

Her 2nd month has been more eventful! I'll have that blog soon!

I'm one month old! October 9, 2012

I'm one month old! October 9, 2012







Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Avery's birth story

As you all already know, Avery Marie was born on September 9, 2012. What you may not know is how and why she was brought into the world early. It's taken me a few weeks to learn how to be a new mom, so this post is a few weeks late! This is a long post, so I apologize in advance. I just want to include as much of the details that I can remember before I forget it all!!

In June I called the hospital to schedule us for a child birth class. This class involved breathing exercises, breastfeeding info, infant care, and a hospital tour. When I called in June, I found out that these classes are booked very quickly, and the earliest we could get in was September 8th. I did the math, and realized I'd only be 36 weeks pregnant, so I wasn't too worried about it being so close to my due date.

Fast forward to Friday, September 7th. I had my regular OB appointment (See previous blog post). They took my blood pressure, and since it had been high for a while now, my doctor put me on bed rest. I asked if I could still attend my child birth class, and they told me it wouldn't be a problem. I just needed to bring my portable BP machine and continue to take my BP throughout the day. If it was persistently high, then to leave class and head home to rest.

The next morning, Saturday, September 8th, I woke up and took my BP. It was within the normal range (for me), so we headed out to our class. I remember telling Neal, "I really feel like we should be bringing our hospital bags with us, just in case." (I guess my instincts we spot on!!! LOL) Needless to say, we didn't bring the bags... The morning was great. I was enjoying the class and felt like I was actually learning some things! Then it was time for lunch. Since I was supposed to be on bed rest, we decided to stay at the hospital and eat at the cafeteria, so I could rest. I ordered a burger and a vegetable medley (My last meal before her arrival). I took my BP before I ate and it was pretty high, so I thought maybe I just needed to eat something. So I took it again after I ate, but it was still high.

When class was about to start up again after lunch, Neal pulled the instructor aside, who is also a labor and delivery (L&D) nurse, and asked her opinion on what I should do. She seemed very concerned and told me to call the emergency line and let them know my BP was elevated. She even suggested that I head up to L&D since we're already at the hospital anyway. Since I'm hard headed, I decided to wait a little longer and test it at the next break. I'm glad we waited because in the next session, an anesthesiologist came in and walked us through how an epidural worked. He really put my mind at ease regarding getting an epi, and I realized it wasn't as scary as people claim it to be. After that session, I took my BP again, and it was climbing even higher. At that point, I started to freak out! So I took the instructor's advice and called the emergency line. They told me to head up to L&D. Luckily, we were already at the hospital!

When we got there, they sent me to a very small room, where there was another patient already being monitored. She was behind a curtain, but I could hear her little one's heart beat on the monitor (such a sweet sound!). They hooked me up to the monitors and left the room. It was taking my BP every 10 minutes. So, as I watched my BP, I thought they would surely send me home and continue my bed rest. So I decided to call my mom and let her know we left the class and came to L&D, but for her to NOT worry because I'll probably be out of there soon. As I'm telling her this, the doctor walks in, so I handed over the phone to Neal. The doctor has the sweetest voice, and it is very calming, but she was VERY rude to me. The first thing she says was, "What part of being on bed rest makes you think you could come to this class?" I told her my doctor was ok with it. She then tells me, without sugar coating anything, that they were going to induce me. Of course I didn't completely understand everything, so I said, "When?" She said, "Today." My heart sank. This was NOT in my plan. I was supposed to go to the birthing class, that's it! I wasn't supposed to have a baby that day! She then gives me specific instructions that I'm not allowed to be on my phone, I can't have visitors, the room must stay very quiet, etc. as to not raise my blood pressure any more. Another shock for me. How was I supposed to stay off my phone???

Last photo of the belly! This was taken before I found out I was being induced.


So they transferred me from the tiny room that I shared with the anonymous girl, to a labor and delivery room, which was a lot bigger and much nicer! This is when reality hit me. This is the room where I'm going to have this baby. The nurse turns on the tv, but puts it on a channel that had black and white squiggly lines and was playing calming music. Wanting to change the channel, they told me I couldn't because I needed to keep as calm as possible... So NO phone, NO tv and NO talking??? Are they trying to kill me??

They had all this pumping into me!

So around 4:30pm, they started my induction. Before the induction, they told me I was already dilated to 2cm and 80% effaced (Just the day before, I was only at 1cm dilated and 50% effaced, so my body was already progressing on its own). This is when they also informed me that as soon as I started feeling labor pains, they were giving me an epidural. They didn't want my BP to spike, and if I'm in any pain, my BP would definitely increase. So around midnight, even though I don't recall telling them that I was in pain, they brought in the anesthesiologist for my epidural. When he walked in, we immediately recognized him! It was the same anesthesiologist from our class earlier that day! Since everything was still fresh in my mind, I'd like to think I was a good patient for him, since I knew exactly what to do, and how he wanted me to sit, etc. However, the medication made me VERY shaky and nauseous, so as soon as they had me sit up, anything that was left over of my lunch, was coming up! (This was the only time I threw up)

After the epidural, I felt so much better. And so I continued to labor throughout the night. Around 4 or 4:30am on September 9th, the nurse came in to check me. She told me I was dilated about 4.5cm and that my water was about to break, so she basically broke it with her hand. I was starting to get excited because things were progressing slowly, but they were progressing! Then around 6 or 6:30am, she came back to check me again. What she said next, I don't think Neal or I will ever forget. She said, "What's this? I think I feel something soft. I think I just put my finger in a butt hole." I immediately freaked out! This can NOT be happening! The doctor was confident that the baby was head down with this all began. So Neal said, "Are you sure you didn't put your finger in her mouth?" So she checked again. She then called in another nurse for a second opinion. She couldn't verify if it was a head or a butt. So a THIRD nurse came in to the room. She checked me as well. They then decided to bring in an ultrasound tech. The tech wasn't able to verify with a sonogram if she was head up or down, so they then brought in a BIGGER ultrasound machine. That was when I got the terrible news that she was breech. At this point, my room was full of nurses that had been scratching their heads, so I tried to remain calm. I think I remember asking, "SO I guess this means I have to have a c-section?" But I don't remember getting a response because I already knew the answer to my own question.

When the nurses left the room, I lost it. I remember crying thinking that I did NOT want a c-section. I remember telling Neal, "I can have this baby vaginally. Other women have had a breech baby vaginally before, I can do it!" But I knew they wouldn't let me. I was trying to find ANY reason to NOT have a c-section. But what made me the most upset was the fact that they let me labor for 14 hours!!

The next 30 minutes were all a blur. I remember being wheeled into the operating room, where I had to climb on to the operating table (not easy when you've had an epidural). And I remember talking to the anesthesiologist. I remember lying there naked from the chest down thinking, "Well, this is awkward." I remember them putting up the sheet so I couldn't see what they were doing. I remember it feeling like FOREVER before Neal showed up. I also remember feeling them cut into me. Ok, I didn't feel the pain, but it felt like someone with REALLY sharp fingernails was poking at my stomach. I also remember my entire body being jerked around. Even Neal made a comment about how much my body was moving around. They were really doing a number on me down there. No wonder they put up that sheet!! I also remember having to pee REALLY bad, even though I had a catheter. I asked the anesthesiologist if it was normal because it was extremely painful. The next thing I remember was seeing them take Avery into the other room.  I didn't hear her cry. They didn't show her to me. They didn't even let me look at her before they whisked her away. They just took her to the other room. They didn't let Neal go in there right away either. (We found out later that Avery wasn't breathing. Glad I found out AFTER the fact, otherwise I'm not sure how I would have reacted!) They then told Neal he could go in and take pictures. After what seemed like hours, Neal finally brought her out to me. I remember looking at her for the first time, and just crying! ANNNDDD that's all I remembered. They next thing I remember I was back in my room.

Avery Marie Johnson born:
9-9-12
7:00am
7lbs, 19 3/4"
Head circumference 13"
Chest circumference 13"

She looks bored, like she's ready to get home!!



My poor baby's breech legs!